Random

It’s strange how things happen...

How life can just change in an instance without you even realising

See before he was just this random boy I saw around

Now he makes me laugh even without knowing

Random how things can be

Resisting...Thoughts...Urges

Resisting the urge to go so deeply within this to avoid us both getting hurt

Yet for some reason

What seemed to be so black and white, is now flowing down a path of the unfamiliar that could cause both of us a greater pain.

Or should I say me,

As it is no longer apparent to me what you think about this

Thinking

Thinking of him takes me back to a place when I was happiest

A time and place when trouble was a matter that didn't concern me,

My childhood...oh how sweet!

When my one and only concern was what should I eat!

This was before the reality of growing up and upcoming adulthood hit me like a ton of bricks

And becoming an adult seemed like a lifetime away...

His Reflection

As I stared at his perfect reflection through the display window

It was like time stood still for what felt like an eternity

I was frozen in the moment

I had a thousand thoughts running through my head,

Appearing in my head and fleeting just as quickly…

“It was never meant to happen like this!”

“Why today of all days?”

As I stood there with my brain running like a Gatwick Express train

My heart started to beat faster and faster until I could hardly hear myself think

I should have walked away then and there but I continued to stare at his perfect reflection

Kind of Love

I want that all consuming kind of love,
That deep can't live with each other but can't live without each other kind of love,
Before you think I'm just another clueless romantic who has this unrealistic notion of that kind of love,
Take a moment to just listen to why I crave that kind of love. 

Curve

Your silhouette is curved like a stunning sculpture,
Shaped with an elegance that is intoxicating to everyone that you grasp with your inner glow.
So luminous is your being is it like looking into the sun directly, and being blinded...
Yet you continue to guise at it,
Even though you know it isn't good for you, but the charm it holds has you trapped.

The Flying Goodbye Note Part 2

The continuous merry-go-around that we put ourselves on has to stop

And it is harder, knowing everything that has been expressed cannot be taken back…but we both know this time around it has to be it

No more turning back

No more false sense of realities that neither of us cannot admit or aren't willing to admit

The Flying Goodbye Note Part 1

Fly away into the night sky so far I could not trace you even if I tried.

You and I are both more than aware that this has been pending

Like the pressure of overflowing ash so close to its breaking point it is a surprise it had made it this far without destroying everything within its very sight

But I chose to cling onto you like you were mine to keep

Not realising that by keeping you close I was concealing your beauty from those that deserved to see you in your glorious form

A Fresh Chapter

So this is my second attempt at having my own blog. My first attempt lasted about a year and that might tell you something about me as a person.  After toying with the idea I have finally worked up the courage to start a new blog. So here we are.